Sooo, I really hessitated to actually post this, but I also wanted to let you all know that.....


I'M HAVING A COLLAB WITH ' s u b я o s a ♥ '!

We are currently working on a layout image, without telling you too much:
- It will be  Day of the Dead related
- It will be done this month (Around the 21st) so yes, it  can be used as a Halloween layout!
- It will go in the auctions.


Interested? I will have spoilers down here!!

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tiny bit more sneak peak

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If you are interested in following our progression, check back to this topic.
Although I can't show you too much yet,  Lemme know what you think!

Sorry sorry sorry! Uni life has taken over, I've got to finish my slides on a presentation tomorrow morning/afternoon then hopefully I can crack at it again in the evening :D

You have been City'd xD

just keep me posted. im super excited to see it finished

-Stalks-

yea BIG NO XD

haha we seem to have lots of people wanting it! I hope when rosas part is done, we can wrap it up this week and get it out, since we are nearing oct.

im hoping its mine forever ;)

HEY THERE

So uhm, I poked Rosa again, and she's finishing off this week. Doing the final itty bits of touches.
I still haven\'t gotten around to coding it, though, and not sure if I can muster up the energy. *****read below

You can expect the image in the auctions somewhere this week. Wether it be with or without coding remains to be seen yet.
I'll try and get on coding, But don't expect any wonders XD Im not a pro like Monnie ;)


*****- I will have a TLDR on the bottom. 

For those who don't know; This year has been hell for me so far and it has taken so much energy from me. My Dog had to be put down after a few months suffering from infections that randomyl popped up. I did a test and it turned out to be leukemia. He was so bad at the next infection I decided to put him down as he was also 13 years old and bascially already started to have signs of doggy dementia and stiffness, and I already had to feed him twice the amount, bread, rice, chicken and all that to even keep him on weight, bumps and lumps everywhere... etc. He had a fantastic life with me for his 11 years after 2 years of hell; I never went anywhere without him. He was such a joy in my life and a bit hyper. He was really a character. I do have another dog though but hes very docile, dislikes going out in the rain (actually cant even get him to come outside when its raining) Is very silent (unless the doorbell goes, but he barks a bit and its done)  And super cuddly, where as Mengel was very noisy, beepy, happy, jumping up and down like a crazy man whenever we got out, whether it be rain, snow, thunder (Oke apart from that time when there was 30 cm of snow and it was -17 degree celsius...)  Yeh I will miss him.
This whole thing was a total of like 800 euros, but worth every penny in my opinion as my dogs are my children. There was some problem with the administration though and this caused the urn of my dog to be delivered a week later than usual... Anyway just before that I found out that my dad, which I had'nt spoken to in 5 years because he really hurted me by things he said, was deadly sick. It turned out that he had cancer for 9!!!! years , so even before my mom died in 2012. My family docter is a piece of .....  and he left my dad walking around in a lot, and A LOT of pain all those years without sending him to do scans at the hospital. I did not know this obviously, and apparantly the cancer had been in his brain to, hence his behaviour changes, but back then, no one knew. Anyway they found out just before my dog passed away from leukemia, and I foudn it out via my best friend (long story short) I called my dad, wanting to make up before he would go. Obviously I never meant for my dad to be deadly sick, I just needed some space, after the hurting. I called him, and asked him if I could come over. He started shouting at me with all horrible things. I told him I respected his wishes and I would leave him allone. Then after a few days he said: Can you come  x and x. And yes I went. I saw him about 3/4 times before he passed away. ( Every week basically) Before he passed I had a friend hung herself. It was the wife of a really good online friend I have. Then my dad passed away in april. Which was hard enough after having these horrible deaths already, I found out he had not payed my moms grave in a year. This costed me a bill of 1500 euro.
My boyfriend works but I have dissability funds, so its not particulary pleasant to get such a bill. Atop of that, we needed to pay back  half a year of taxes 1100 euros. And then Another YEAR of taxes (3500) came atop of that ( I went in appeal for that, so fingers crossed) because of a mistake which was not ours.
It took 3 months to finally get an appointment with the woman in my dads house to pick up stuff and sign stuff over to me. She had married my dad 4 years ago and enduring all this. Its a sweet woman, but I really had my doubts at her because we didn\\\'t come off a great start due to my dad talking trash about me, but she always supported me and told him he had to meet me and stop making accusations.  But ofcourse because of the bad start I had a bit of trust issues in the beginning.  Anyway. she had been in hospital for a month after my dad passed because she was feeling really ill.
then it turned out that the house was in a really bad shape, my dad left alot of debts. Not wanting to carry the debt over to me, she decided to stay in the house, and give everything that was my dad and mom related to me. She did just that. Also my dad said he was fully covered for his passing. Tured out he left a 7k bill after, and a 20k loan.
The house; I tried to buy it. But there has to be a loan of about 20k to actually make the house fit again, as the foundation isn\\\'t the best, the roof was leaking, and the kettle needed to be changed. The small swimming pool will collapse if you get the water out, and some other stuff.  It willb e too expensive for me and my boyfriend, who has a contract, but for  a year.  So it will all be tricky.
The house is sold now. In november it will be housed by other people. The debts are almost payed off by the sale. It really hurts because I grew up in that house and I have all these memories, but there is nothing I can do.

It has had such a strain on me, that the past few months, I totally forgot myself. The house in terms of cleanlyness is behind (my boyfriend had ADD and works all day and is just trashed after a 12 hour work day), I've had days that passed like a high speed train. I forgot to take any medication for months (Its just Ritalin for my Attention Dreamy Days dont worry) because I forgot to pick it up, and then suddenly another week was passed.....
Last week I grabbed my shit together, I picked up my medication, and I'm starting to figure out how to get back up again.  Im still suffering from random break downs of tears, and sometimes I jsut feel its too much for me. I wish I had some help getting me back up again, but since we already had so many bills, I really don't want to put another atop of that by getting help. (Bad I know)

TL: DR I had a lot of big bills, my dog had to be put down in feb 25, a friend hun herself in march and my dad passed on april 5. Lots of issues are surrounding his death because debts and unpayed bills. and it has all kind of torn me down to the point I was just not doing anything anymore, not even taking my A.D.D medication. which resulted in more mess.

keep yourself healthy first and formost 
 

we just cant all wait to see the finial result :)

I'm so sorry all that got piled on you, Gothi :'(

I really hope things go up from here for you, your bf, and your pets.
Much love from me xx

It will all be fine, it just needs time. I had some help when my mom passed away in 2012 which greatly helped, but now I\'m doing it all on my own. I have been appealing for the big bill, the 1100 is partly payed off. The dog and my mother are covered. I just hope my boyfriend will have his job for another year at least, that would be really nice and helpfull haha.
I have something to look forward too as I also have my 3 years anniversary with my bf. He turns 25, I turn 31 and he\'s here for 3 years, aswell as having a relationship for 3 years.  I bought Tickets for ComicCon to celebrate.

I want to do something special there, but I am not sure what yet xD I did buy the standard tickets otherwise it would be like super expensive. If any of you have an idea, pm me ;)

I want to keep positive. I do mindfulness every day ( for quiet some time now) and it has greatly helped me. Thank you for all your kind and sweet words. I love the HP community, always so supportive and kind. I love you all.
I know back in the day I would have just dissapeared and went into my shell and locked myself up basically, But I feel like I really changed. I don\'t like medication but I feel like Ritalin really helps taking off rough edges. When I took it again last Saturday the world opened up again haha.
Actually I\'m planning to finish some old projects I\'ve been working on, and never finished.

Not wanting to hijack the topic but...
http://prntscr.com/pd8jr1

Ok oke, anyway, I told Rosa to please wrap it up, so I can get that off my bullet journal, as Inktober (drawing 31 days in october) started today too.
https://inktober.com/ if you want to check that out.

Im really excited for Rosa to wrap up the image. I\'m sure y\'all will love it :D
Oh and what do you think of my new avii ? haha

Sorry guys, it's taken me a while xD

I have an essay due this coming week whilst working on a dissertation and a presentation, damn nursing school.

I have tidied it up and added my credits and sent it back over gothi for hers and then it is done :D 

I'm thinking, maybe it should be sold without coding. Purely after reading Gothi's post my heart broke, I am unable to code (I can just about manage manip'ing xD baha.) I would feel bad to burden her with all of the coding. It's Gothi's call on that.

Hopefully she will see my facebook message soon, and then hopefully we can get this up tonight/tomorrow :D:D:D

Thanks ya'll for being super patient!!

You have been City'd xD

I answered. It will be fine lol.
I also have some good news. My boyfriend has been offered a new contract with increased pay, and the perk to stay even when the workload is little.
Normally they fire people but my boyfriend has immunity now. Next year they will look into giving him a permanent contract o.o

I did not code it as of yet, Sorrryyyyyyyyyyyyy

WE DID IT GUYS
We finished the Collab, it should be in auctions soonish!

It's up yo 

RUN GUYS RUN!!!!